new day dawning...

Early on a Friday with lightning in the sky. And some needless anxiety in my heart. I can feel me slipping back to the "old me" -No, not wanting to drink, but just some of the fears, doubts, and insecurities.I haven't heard from one who I usually hear from daily- and in my own selfish mind, keep thinking stuff like "What did I do? or not do?" or "How have I offended him?" or any other number of stupid thoughts. Of course, this is only a return to old behaviors for me and bringing me to a sense of reality. There is still a great deal of work to do in order to heal from years and years of self-pity and alcohol abuse. Some times we grow too close to people too fast. Sometimes we need to back off and breathe for a bit. Whatever, these feelings will pass and I won't have to drink over it.

Here's hope for a great day. A Friday! A day in Key West!! This island will alwaysbe home for me. The spirit and soul of this place have invaded my heart. Not the stupid politicos, not the selfish wealthies - (hurricanes will eventually take care of those) - but the spirit of freedom and the music in the air. I am going to visit family in Maine later in August and will spend most of the time on an island off the coast of Maine. While looking forward to that, and even though I'll be on an island, it won't be "my" island.

Love and Peace from Key West and from... Chris

My God, I love to be able to write like this. It cleanses my heart and mind. Writing helps me put a perspective on things when they don't seem right or even when they seem too right.