Gratitude...once more
I am really filled with a great deal of gratitude this evening...gratitude and relief. I am not used to having things wrong with my body that I haven’t done to myself or that I cannot explain. These little incidents over the past couple of weeks did, indeed, make me a little bit uneasy, but only because I didn’t know what was going on.
I still don’t know what is going on, for now, and probably won’t until after the weekend. I do know that if it was anything really serious I’d not be sitting here writing this evening. Even as I was lying in the space capsule (MRI machine) this afternoon, my thoughts were of thanking God for all the gifts given to me, especially the gift of sobriety which allows all of the others. I am so grateful to be sober. Sobriety means more to me than anything else in the world – as without sobriety I would have nothing.
I am grateful for friends; met and, as yet, unmet. I am grateful that there are people in this world who care for me. When I wrote to my Mom about this situation I was very explicit in letting her know that I had a wonderful support group, both here in Key West and online. She understood the Key West part but the online part is still a little baffling for her. I honestly do not know where I would be if it weren’t for the people that I talk to, send cards to, hear from, chat with, and care about every day. I honestly don’t know how things would be without all of you in my life today and I thank God that you are here – each and everyone of you.
I have spent time with BETH and with BARNEY. I have met GREG here in Key West. In each case the actual meeting went well beyond my hopes, imaginings, and expectations. There is no reason for me to believe that there would be anything different in meeting each of you – and I intend to do that as time goes on. I cannot imagine a better group of friends or for support. Here in paradise, I have my sponsor, Charlie, and my co-workers and other friends in and out of the program. I have Steve and Ronney, who for all intents and purposes, are family. I have got to be the wealthiest person in the world. That is to say, wealthy in the things that really matter.
My alcoholism was to lead me back to God, as I understand God. By staying sober on a daily basis, then my faith in God was to grow and grow. Today I honestly believe that there is not one thing in the world that could happen to me that I could not let God handle for me. Through AA and by living the steps to the absolute best of my ability, I have been able to change and grow (and am able to keep changing and growing) into a person who is able to love and is able to allow himself to be loved. What a miracle that is...
Enough for now, I really do have to get ready to teach our otters tonight. This has been sort of a warm up... I thank you all from the deepest part of my heart.
I still don’t know what is going on, for now, and probably won’t until after the weekend. I do know that if it was anything really serious I’d not be sitting here writing this evening. Even as I was lying in the space capsule (MRI machine) this afternoon, my thoughts were of thanking God for all the gifts given to me, especially the gift of sobriety which allows all of the others. I am so grateful to be sober. Sobriety means more to me than anything else in the world – as without sobriety I would have nothing.
I am grateful for friends; met and, as yet, unmet. I am grateful that there are people in this world who care for me. When I wrote to my Mom about this situation I was very explicit in letting her know that I had a wonderful support group, both here in Key West and online. She understood the Key West part but the online part is still a little baffling for her. I honestly do not know where I would be if it weren’t for the people that I talk to, send cards to, hear from, chat with, and care about every day. I honestly don’t know how things would be without all of you in my life today and I thank God that you are here – each and everyone of you.
I have spent time with BETH and with BARNEY. I have met GREG here in Key West. In each case the actual meeting went well beyond my hopes, imaginings, and expectations. There is no reason for me to believe that there would be anything different in meeting each of you – and I intend to do that as time goes on. I cannot imagine a better group of friends or for support. Here in paradise, I have my sponsor, Charlie, and my co-workers and other friends in and out of the program. I have Steve and Ronney, who for all intents and purposes, are family. I have got to be the wealthiest person in the world. That is to say, wealthy in the things that really matter.
My alcoholism was to lead me back to God, as I understand God. By staying sober on a daily basis, then my faith in God was to grow and grow. Today I honestly believe that there is not one thing in the world that could happen to me that I could not let God handle for me. Through AA and by living the steps to the absolute best of my ability, I have been able to change and grow (and am able to keep changing and growing) into a person who is able to love and is able to allow himself to be loved. What a miracle that is...
Enough for now, I really do have to get ready to teach our otters tonight. This has been sort of a warm up... I thank you all from the deepest part of my heart.
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