Dealing with Post Hurricane Blues

I guess I didn't even know that I was going to stress out even after the hurricane went through. I thought that life might get back to some sort of normalacy. I thought that we'd clean up, help others clean up, and get back to "business as usual". I wasn't ready for the sadness, the negativity, the "I don't care any more" attitude. I was not ready to deal with the rest of my staff in a defeated attitude. Try as I might to be positive and upbeat, I have been responded to with a blasee attitude and it tried to rub off on me,- sort of. I was becoming disenchanted with my co-workers. I was snapping instead of responding. I was pointing and blaming where there wasn't any pointing or blaming required.

I began to see these things in my self and my attitude and was not happy about it. I began to see old attitudes and feelings, long discarded, come to the surface again. I began to see good habits change or fade away. I was not in danger of wanting to drink, but I was in danger of falling back into old, destructive patterns that would eventually lead to a drink. I realized that I had to do something.

I began talking about these things with a couple of friends. I began praying specifically instead of in generalities. I got out of looking to myself for help and, instead, asked for help. I also was able to take a day and a half off and finally get some rest.

The attitudes are still around me, but now as I go day to day, I can see my own attitude getting more and more positive and I am grateful for that. These have been stressful times, but times move on and change. It's my goal to make these changes positive; to be able to reach out and help people and have the ability to reach out and allow people to help me along as well.

Today, Life is good...very good indeed.